Meditation

The Way You View Life.

       I am only twenty five years old but it seems like I have viewed life in many different ways constantly changing with my mood and never quite the same as the moment before. My view on life is like my thoughts or at least most of them. They all come from this dark place that thinks it is separate from everything else. This dark place is called my Ego, I am always battling to defeat this evil villain inside me. Emotions that come to me from this villain are anger, sadness, hate, self doubt, and many others the list can go on for days. 

      There is something else deep inside of me that only comes when I call. It is called my Soul, my ego's worse nightmare. My Soul is my connection to God, or the source of all creation. I am my Soul and not my ego even though my ego would like me to think otherwise. I am a spiritual being having a human experience, I try to remind my self of this everyday. I have heard this saying from almost every author I have read from. I am definitely not the first to say it or the last for it does not come from  us but from the one who made us.

I am going to write just this little paragraph on the subject of God. I am not nor will I ever push my beliefs on anyone. God is a quick term to use to describe all that is, all that was and all that will ever be. It to me has no gender for it is not a physical being, it has both masculine and feminine aspects to it. So when I say God it is a quick way for me to describe all that is, all that was and all that will ever be. 

There are many ways to reconnect with our true selves, and to escape the ego that feeds us the filth that makes us sad, depressed, angry, resentful, and have all the self doubt. Meditation is the easy way out the escape from what the ego likes to call reality. Meditation has many forms some find it best in sitting down and saying a Mantra. Yoga is also a great meditation technique, some like to walk it out as a form of meditation to clear our minds of the garbage of the ego, and once we get that all peaceful mindfulness we are finally connected to God.

Once we have connected our self to God we can find peace and realize that what we have been stressing about just seems to fade away. The more we train ourselves to go to this place of calmness we can wish for what we want and actually watch it come true. We attract what we are thinking about at all times and we tend to focus on all the bad things that happen to us. So starting today right now stop what you are thinking and write down what you want, put it on a Post-it note. Put the post-it note somewhere you will always see it, so it can remind you of what you want. When you see this post-it note feel the emotions you would feel if you had it right now. 

We tend to put a lot of emotions into what we don't want and we find ourselves getting more of just that. WHAT WE DON'T WANT! Close your eyes every time you see that post-it note and allow your body to feel the emotions for getting everything you want. What you will find out by doing this is all you had to do is want something bad enough to think and feel as if you had it to get it. 

In closing, I hope that if you got anything from this, that you would just take some time to breath and realize that all is ok.

Frequencies

       Today I am reading a lot about frequencies, and how that is what our thoughts are. So it is basically saying that things on the same frequency attract each other. Here in the past few months I have had my thoughts on a very bad frequency. I have PTSD and Generalized Anxiety, which was caused by a drive by shooting that happened behind me while I was working. 

         Some days that is all I can think about. Having flashbacks throwing me back into that moment in time. I right now am in a contemplation mood were I am looking back and realizing that the one thing in the past is controlling my future. So since I can see it, it is time to change it. I understand that this event was a big life event for me and I will never forget it. I have been frustrated about how it has taking over my life.  So today and everyday after I am going to put new frequencies into my brain to be broadcasted out into the world and allow good things to happen, instead of allowing this negative frequency to take control of me. This negative frequency that is only going to cause other negative things to happen. 

         Positive thoughts are my focus I'm going to write down things I like about myself, my life, and my great future with my Partner Martin. I understand that some days are going to be hard and some days I'll want to forget about it all together. That is why I will I trust in someone that will no matter what remind me to look at the things I have written. These things that I am thankful for. I will also start praying for the people that have it worse then I do. Feel free to message me if you need prayers. These new thoughts and actions will cause me to have a positive frequency that will create positive events in my life to occur. I started this post after taking a nice long jog, exercise creates positive thoughts and actions! I hope you enjoy, and would love your feed back.   

Chapters

      I as everyone does have chapters in our lives. These chapters are more like stages of self recognition or discovery. All throughout my life I remember me looking for more then what is there. I for some reason have always felt like I spiritually need to grow more in this lifetime. This feeling has made it hard to just live a normal life without searching for something more. 
     When I was just a little boy I felt a lot older the I am. I still to this day look at people my own age as little kids. Every now and then I find what I see an old soul and they are close to my age and I see them as a peer. Is it that spiritually I am that much older then my peers, is my soul that much older? If that is the case which it might be. It would be my duty as a spiritual elder to teach some of the younger souls to look past what is our reality, as a human and see that there is a bigger picture then the drama that we entertain our selves with. Some people can get so wrapped up in the drama that it drives them crazy. When what we should be doing is teaching, learning and caring for ourselves. When I say ourselves I truly mean all of us, as human we see ourselves as individuals, when we should be seeing that truly we are one. 
      Our thoughts are what makes the world what it is today, and as we can see most of us think negatively about everything. Doubt is our worst enemy and doubt only exists in ourselves. If we start to add just one thought into our mind, like the world is a peaceful and harmonious  place to be. We as a whole putting that thought out to the universe, I feel that the world would start to change and become something of a heaven on earth. 
         These paragraphs before this one are in my option very true. I wrote them about 6 months ago, my frame of mind was in a better place then it is right now. I had something happen to me and I am trying to get back on track to becoming my better self. I wake up everyday with extra struggles just to step out of the door, its even a bigger struggle to get in the car. I doctors are helping with medication, but as anyone who knows me can atest that I hate medication. Having put all the power in Gods hands to help me get through this rough time, and being blessed already with a caring and loving man to hold and care for me. I want this plateform and these posts within it to give someone other than me the power to change there life for the better. I feel strongly that by helping others I intern help myself.

Mountains

      It seems here in Earth there are obstacles in which we must get over all the time. I have had one of those you would call a mountain.

       I was working and watched an SUV get shot behind me. The SUV had four people in it and by the grace of God they were saved and the 8 year old boy got shot in the leg and the 26 year old got shot in the butt. So everyone ended up ok. That one event has caused me so much trouble and pain. I now have PTSD and general anxiety, this comes with flash backs and panic attacks.

      I am a strong believer in holistic approach and have been fighting with me doctor about putting me on medication. They have me on something for the anxiety and are now going to be putting me on something for the flash backs. I was at work when this happened and now I am fighting for them to pay for the medical bills. I for one would never have been there if it wasn't for the fact I was working. I went back to work on July 20th and ATT proved to be unforgiving. The retaliation that I'm receiving from them is of course not considered out of normal practice in the m&p. So truly there is nothing that can be done about it the union is paid by the company so it no longer serves its purpose.

     So I am sorry for ranting I have no inspiring messages for the day. Hopefully next time I will be more uplifting and inspire someone to do something, that will change the world from what it is becoming. 

Waves

I am a wave not like any other, I go at my own speed. There are so many waves, but I am different from those but yet I am exactly like they are I look different physically. I crash on the shore slightly different from the way they do. I feel in describing people as waves give the perception that we r one. That as a community we need to stand as one for peace, as a population of love. The world now has became a battle field of hate and discrimination against others for our own insecurities. 

  I am not a religious person by all means, but as god says "I am in all of you.". I say this statement is really claiming that we are all one that the only thing that keeps us apart is our belief that we a separate. In this belief comes hate, we begin to hate those that proudly flaunt what we r ashamed of. We hate them for being different, not normal. In all actuality there is no normal, but a perception of it. 

    This book, if it ever becomes one is only a collection of my thoughts, or a piece of the universe coming out of my brain into my finger tips. Which sucks in a way because this damn iPhone is so small I should of started it on the laptop instead. Oh well, it is what it is what it is. No one can change what is happening with out doing something, so this is me doing something. 

   I feel like us as a race is falling short on our revolutionary journey. We get caught up in all this technology, drama, greed, and selfishness. We ignore the inserts of wisdom the the universe gives us in forms of random thoughts in our head. These thoughts that make us think we wise as an individual, but in actuality we are all in our owe right wise but on different stages of wisdom

My Spiritual Journey

    Hello, my name is John. As this is my first post I feel I should give some back ground history of me and who I am. I am a boy from a small town who always felt god made a mistake dropping me there. 

     I am an Old Soul, so to speak. I never really felt comfortable in interacting with my own peers I am currently 25 y/o. Most of my friends have been twice my senior if not more. I have always had a psychic sensitives all through out my life. Sometimes a lot better then others, I usually tried to suppress it as a kid. I was never good at it though I would say weird things as a kid (as if I was an elder) and would have panic attacks as well from suppressing my abilities.  

      My eldest sister was my mother in many ways, she was also my best friend. She like I have always been looking for were we belong in this world. We are connected spiritually. She has been a big influence in my life, she helped shape me for who I am today. 

      I view life as a learning experience, I view my self as a student of spiritual teachings. I hope is blog becomes a platform for discussion of spiritual subjects, I will also use it as my journal to document my studies as a student of life. I welcome your input and constructive criticism, but have zero tolerance for ignorance of narrow minded views and opinions. I will be creating a Twitter and